Today has been emotionally difficult for me. Yesterday evening, a friend contacted me to let me know that a mutual friend had posted a suicide note on her Facebook and had gone missing. The next 20 hours or so were a bit of a blur. We were internet friends through the music business, and so while I did rack my brains trying to figure out how to help, I realized so much vital information was missing from my arsenal- I did not know where she was living these days, who her friends were... I didn't even know if the phone number I had was still correct. I tried contacting her but heard nothing back. My friends also received nothing, and we were all collectively stuck in limbo.
This morning I received word that she did not make it.
It's not my place to reveal any more information than that, but this morning, I also heard of Chris Cornell's suicide. Hearing about two deaths in the span of 24 hours for the same reason is something I've never personally dealt with before, and while one is of an artist/celebrity-figure that you and I probably have never met, the impact has placed me in an emotional place I'm unfamiliar with.
I've spent the whole day trying to figure out a way that we at Magnetic can cover the pain of Chris Cornell's death while simultaneously toiling away at my own feelings of my friend's painful passing, and I've come to this conclusion- there is no more information that I can write now that can help me or the rest of the staff or anyone else reading this come to terms with their pain. We at Magnetic could try our best to cover every minute detail, but every other website on the planet will be doing that for readers that are curious about that kind of thing, and there's no point in trying to do that. Plus, I'm tasked with the daily news, and I don't think I have the emotional capacity to bear that at this moment anyways.
I have decided that the best plan is to look forward. For those of you that may be contemplating suicide, feeling pain, or even just having a rough day, there are a myriad of professionals who are here to help you at a moment's notice. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, and life is worth living. My friend and Cornell and anyone else that may have passed today will be missed by their friends and family and even by many strangers. It is painful for all that feel death's grips, even when it's not on us directly. I cannot change one minute of the past, but I hope that perhaps we can change the future.
We've listed below places to reach out to in times of need. There is always hope and even at its darkest hour, humans have the incredible capacity to endure.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Website/chatline here, 1-800-273-8255
DiDi Hirsch Mental Health Center: Website here, 1-888-807-7250
Suicide.org: Website here (will have information based on state), 1-800-784-2433
Suicide Stop (online chat): Website here
I'm Alive: Website/chatline here
Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741
PEER Support Chat (for LGBTQ): Website/chatline here, 1-888-843-4564
Veterans Live Chat: Website/Chatline here, text 838255
Trevor Project (LGBTQ): Website/Chatline here
More information can be found here via NowMattersNow.org's chatline guide, the most extensive we've found thus far.